A post dedicated for those people, who suffered a lot… after nature’s wrath… I hope that they get the needed help and that political issues step aside… to pave way for what is necessary in these times of dire needs…

Last year, I thought of entering the year with a new set of fish and a new tank set up… I bought 3 red telescope, black gravel and thought of keeping goldfish instead of tetras and barbs, a sort of upgrading my fish passion…

Problems struck me… The black gravel is as black as its name… I’ve been cleaning and filtering it manually to no avail and up until now, its unusable and still flushing out black dirt when i wash it… The gold fish, well the name aren’t synonymous on how they keep the look of the aquarium, they only go with a subtle setup and they dirty up the water with their waste and left over food… I thought of limiting the decoration with stones and marbles and a small castle… and to solve my problem with the water being tainted as early as 3 days, I bought this new overhead filter which is far stronger than the one I used with my tetras.. it seems to be working at my first install and for the first time I can see the water and the tank alive with the bubbles  here and there… yet seeing it this morning I still think that I may not be able to keep up with their uncontrollable waste disposal attitude.. arrgghhh!!!!

If by my next month it still persists… I may shift to tetras again…  or maybe angel fish or maybe sharks waaahhh!!!

This ain’t fishville brother!

2009 has been somewhat a good year to me and my family… in all aspects… Im looking forward for a better 2010… I made a simple list on what I would like to achieve or happen this year in random order …

- Get more, more clients to make more money for my family…
- Visit other countries preferably somewhere in Europe or the States…
- A fully renovated house
- A family car
- Laptop
- More outings with Honey

Things to focus on and practice:
- Maintain good health and eat good nutritious food for the family
- Less profanity
- Good time management
- Disciplined business attitude
- Humility

We don’t need to dream it all.. Just live a day…

Every business encounters its high and lows… and battles economic hardships to even threaten its existence in the competitive market…

The past 2 weeks, I have faced  challenging times both personal and business wise. Though battered by weary thoughts and confusion. I have one thing that sticks in my brain, losing is never an option. I have to be optimistic and believe in myself that i can sustain xdcweb. Struggling during those gloomy days, warding of blades of grass, wandering in my darkest thoughts, I never called out defeat. Amidst the hard times, I slowly cut out the weeds that tainted my thinking and slowly inch closer to clearer path…. Its tough but I made it. technically some of my clients also suffered in delays but those days were spent on fruitful reflection for i firmly believed that a clouded mind can only produce an unclear crooked output…

By next week, A new dawn of xdcweb will emerge…. Our team will start on developing a new site with new promos and I also decided that a business blog will be appropriate in this new design… so watch out! …

xdcweb is not just about business.. its also our passion… 

…. A post, a space to give thanks to the woman who bravely faced the tyrants and opened the doorway to a new born homeland, a country of liberty and freedom.

The only president of the Philippines who gave essential meaning to honesty leadership…

Thank you President Corazon Aquino… Your legacy will remain in the hearts of each Filipinos…

You touched the very heart of each and everyone…

Sometimes I feel I’ve got to
Run away I’ve got to
Get away
From the pain you drive into the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I’ve lost my light
For I toss and turn I can’t sleep at night

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I’ll run from you
This tainted love you’ve given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that’s not nearly all
Oh…tainted love
Tainted love

Now I know I’ve got to
Run away I’ve got to
Get away
You don’t really want anymore from me
To make things right
You need someone to hold you tight
And you think love is to pray
But I’m sorry I don’t pray that way

Once I ran to you (I ran)
Now I’ll run from you
This tainted love you’ve given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that’s not nearly all
Oh…tainted love
Tainted love

Don’t touch me please
I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I’m gonna pack my things and go
Tainted love, tainted love (x2)
Touch me baby, tainted love (x2)
Tainted love (x3)

Maybe its not the person… maybe its the deed… but then again… a deed cannot occur when there’s no one doing it… I hate selfishness… to the point of letting people you care about suffer…. I hate arrogance and pride… to the point that seeing yourself righteous leaves no space for consideration…. I hate profanity only when this is done in anger and to the people you love… I hate blaming… as mistake is very human… we must learn to take responsibilities for some actions we take and not rely on our fingers to call the shots… I hate bullies who use their power to take advantage of people who care for them and turn them to zombies in some manners… Life sometimes become a chain that suppresses itself… we feel obliged yet we know we have choices and we can do thing to change things but circumstances and events become walls of doubts, doubts that make us susceptible to submission…  Mistakes happen… you cannot change that but you can remember not to commit again… but humans do make the same errors twice… and thrice… yet we still believe that change can happen… being optimistic is good… we hate, we love… we fall, we dream…. we cry, we hope…

Let life be a story and not a manual… But never ever be an author to others story… its morally unethical…

The past few weeks have been stressful and till now … I’m still into that financial sinkhole … I’ve got the answers in my sight but not in my hands …

I have learned a lot of lessons too in dealing with friends and clients alike … Friends are only there to serve in your happiest days and when they need you… True friends are hard to find… Clients.. well clients are in some ways your friends and at the same time your master… You see their nicest side when they need this and that… and turn their backs when you need something… but hey .. its all in the papers.. papers… papers… contracts .. MOA and shits alike…  they always feel like you are gonna screw them… well… the world isnt a 100% honest even though some people still are… and it all boils down to business… I wish I can be a good businessman and be as cruel and decisive at the expense of others’ feelings… but I can’t… and I can’t… there is always a good side in each and everyone of us… even the baddest ass  has one.

I’ve also learn to set priorities… Its very much important nowadays… Im just happy that this fucked up situation didn’t drain the life out of me.. and I still know that hope is better than anger…

I know my daughter understands our problem but as much as i do too … understanding is never a solution. I have to seek more favorable and prompt answers for this… I dont want to go back to the black book and ask help from the dark side… I feel that humanity has suffered too…

 Patience is a virtue… People fear what they don’t understand… Light can only shine as much as its power can hold… Darkness is eternal…

I wanna do bad things with you.

When you came in the air went out.
And every shadow filled up with doubt.
I don’t know who you think you are,
But before the night is through,
I wanna do bad things with you.

I’m the kind to sit up in his room.
Heart sick an’ eyes filled up with blue.
I don’t know what you’ve done to me,
But I know this much is true:
I wanna do bad things with you.

When you came in the air went out.
And all those shadows there filled up with doubt.
I don’t know who you think you are,
But before the night is through,
I wanna do bad things with you.
I wanna do real bad things with you.
Ow, ooh.

I don’t know what you’ve done to me,
But I know this much is true:
I wanna do bad things with you.
I wanna do real bad things with you.

Crumbling into the sea of blood
bathed in angst of life
crying needlessly in pain
that hasn’t yet touched
the deadening skin.

Bear witness to the truth
Open eyes for the sweet lies.

Walking into sea of sins
drowned in lust of vanity
wandering endlessly in awe
that deepened the nail
in his dying skin.

Crave for more, more agony
Swim in dreams of pale minds

Speaking in the ears of the deaf
withered in hunger of attention
whispering loudly in grim
that shuttered the love
inside his golden skin.