I’m kinda lazy when it comes to writing in regards with my own life.
I always have this notion not to waste other people’s time with nonsense and that’s my boring life. I was wrong. I realize that this way, when they read about my words, they will feel that it is possible to have a normal life amidst the darkness surrounding your whole being. You just need to take it one day at a time and log it, create a journal. By doing this, you can track the changes, the mood swings, the ups and downs, the failures and victories.
So, let’s start today.
It’s 2:55pm, the middle of the day and work is a bit slow. I am one of the Web/UI designers in our company. All the needed Figma mockups are already done for the Launch this November. But I do have some side tasks for the other team, I work with. This is the SharePoint Support Team. This is more of a layout thing in our bank-wide news site. Honestly, I love doing this kinda stuff! HTML and CSS are my thing!
The Darkness Within Me
I always feel I suffer some form of depression lately but I might be misdiagnosing myself. Maybe it’s just the reality that life is just a sandwich of bittersweet jelly. I easily get annoyed with simple things and feel awfully low at times when I think about usual household problems and typical dilemmas.
I’ve learned to handle these mood swings lately. I turn to working on my websites and do some really dark art and drawings. This way I can focus more on mostly productive things. Instead of punishing my brain with just negative thoughts, I can use the energy to create art, dark art… monsters, demons and what nots.
Anyway, I think that’s a simple way of coping with it.
Our burdens, our problems, our journeys may take different forms, but we all share one goal: Not to get better, but to be better then to be the best of who we are to ourselves. Then, we can be the best person to people we love.